I knew what I wanted, needed and desired

Learning about myself throughout the years and learning what I desired, needed and wanted has helped me to be who I am today. I have always known that a DD lifestyle is what I wanted, needed and desired and I knew that was something that would never change. At the age of 16 years I knew that a vanilla relationship was not for me and although I was young I just knew what I wanted to be truly happy. I only had one vanilla relationship in high school but some would say that I was to young to know what I truly wanted but growing up in a DD home is what set me apart from the normal 16 year old back then.

You see I grew up seeing my dad lead and my mom obeying, I grew up hearing and seeing my mom spanked for her misdeeds, I grew up in a home that was dysfunctional (what family isn't a little on the dysfunctional side) but we all loved and respected each other and I truly believe that seeing my parents get along and hardly fighting set a very good example for me as a child. I remember thinking to myself as a pre-teen "Chelle this is what you want and need"! So at the young age of 16 years after a "vanilla" relationship I decided that a relationship with DD is what I wanted. I was always fascinated with spanking and I even had some D/s tendencies and that is where I started to explore at a very young age. Fast forward a couple of years and I met my first husband who introduced the DD and D/s world to me and boy was I in for a surprise!

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DD in my past to DD presently!

Life is good now with DD but with my ex-husband it was far from good! I was 17 years old when I met him and he was 29 years old (need I say more but I was a rebellious teen who thought her parents were just mean). After a year of my parents and I struggling with the ups and downs with this relationship they finally realized I was not going to stop seeing him so when I turned 18 years old they finally gave me their blessing to date him (without me sneaking around to see him that is). I dated him through college but ended up quitting college to marry him at 20 years old and thinking that life would be good with him from that day forward! He was a natural dominant which attracted me to him in the first place and he could walk in a room and everyone would notice him and there was something about him that just commanded respect. From the start of dating him he told me that domestic discipline is something that he would not live without so if I didn't want that then we would have to pa...

Not feeling it!

Lately there has been something missing from TX and I DD relationship and because I have a very hard time telling him anything when it comes to DD (yes even after 12 years) I really haven't said much to him except through my daily journal writings to him. I have been having a really hard time pinning down the exact right words to say until today that is! For the most part TX is very consistent with me when it comes to disciplining me when I break one of the various rules we have set in place and for the most part everything during the spanking session is right on target as far as lecture, punishment , CT etc.....but for me there is still something missing. Last night is a prime example of what is truly missing from our DD relationship and from his point of view I am sure he thinks everything is fine and dandy but from my point of view it is not. Yesterday I forgot to write my journal writing to him (rule broken) and then I didn't complete my food journal (another rule broken)...

The Brat Side of my Personality!

Just trying to make sense of this thing we call DD! I have been in DD relationships before I met TX and when I was younger I was confused even though I was raised and grew up in a DD family. I feel that it can be confusing even to the most experienced couple practicing this lifestyle. What it has brought to my marriage with TX has been AWESOME and I would never want to be without it in our relationship because I think we both would be miserable. I am NOT your typical TIH and I feel that TX is not the typical HOH in the sense that we actually have an understanding on what we both want in our relationship but I am not beneath him (although I know my place). We have regular sit down talks where we both voice our thoughts, opinions, what could be better, what could be deleted and what could be added to our DD relationship. I am a brat but again I know my place and I know what's allowed with bratting and what's not allowed with bratting. I have heard a lot of backlash in the ...

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