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Feeling Stressed Out!

I haven't updated in months and for that I sincerely apologize but I guess there is just so much going on in my life right now and with TTWD being up and down it's hard for me to sit down at my computer and blog here :(  When I am feeling like things aren't going well in my relationship with TX as far as DD goes then I usually try to stay away from everything that has to do with DD. Right now I have a lot of things going on between my job , my doll business and personal family issues that I am under a tremendous amount of stress and at it's really starting to get to me! Usually when I am stressing out I just put it out of my mind and try not to think about the "stress" and that works for a time but then I get to a point where I just blow up at TX which is not good at all. We have tried stress relief spankings and those work for a time but it seems over time they don't work well at all and it's like I want negative attention from him therefore I will "brat" for negative attention (if that makes sense). We do communicate openly with each other although I always can't communicate face to face and I write down what is going on in my head to him with the one email a day I have to send him before the end of the day. Right now it doesn't help that my hormones are way off kilter so this is some of the reason why the last two weeks have been very hard on my butt :( I usually don't get into a lot of trouble with TX but I have to say the last two weeks I have and it's really starting to bother me. So anyways I just wanted to update to let ya'll know I am still around and why I haven't been blogging much lately. I feel I can contribute a lot to the DD world so I plan on really trying to make time to blog every
week :) 

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  1. AnonymousFebruary 26, 2014 at 12:49 PM

    Hang in there, We all hit bumps in the road at times, and it's okay! Just keep communicating your feelings and you will work through your slump :)

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